Happily Ever After

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The honeymoon phase inevitably fades and the things that you once found endearing or cute start to step on that last nerve. It happens. To all of us. It’s the reality of relationships. It is usually at this point, you and/or your partner might start wondering if you are really the match you felt you were. You replay moments and conversations, look at old photos or texts, reflect on the bliss and passion you once had and feel has somehow slipped away.

The grass on the other side of social media starts to look pretty fucking green. This is when relationships fall apart. You blame your partner for your unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment, or better yet, online. Seeking fulfillment outside your relationship can come in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people rekindle an old friendship, invest in work, and binge on TV or the internet, or abusive substances.

The solution to this dilemma however, won’t be found in distractions or outside your relationship. It lies within it. Trust in each other. Communicate. Be honest. And never stop dating. The truth is you have to work at a relationship day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. Happily ever after is earned not a given.

Thank You For Giving Up On Me

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When you left, I never thought I’d be able to scrape together parts of my broken heart. You left me holding the pieces of a shattered soul, feeling unloved and unwanted. For so long, I fought back the tears and sadness, often silent when I was screaming inside. Little by little, I remembered who I was, struggling to kindle the fire that you extinguished in my deepest depths. I thought I had lost it all when I lost you, but I began to understand it was just the opposite. I discovered that everything that truly mattered was just buried within my heart, So long lost and forgotten that I didn’t know how to uncover it.. until you forced my hand. When you left, I didn’t know how’d I go on or what tomorrow would bring. It was then that I began to realize who I was and what I was capable of. I guess I should thank you for setting me free and opening my eyes to the possibilities. You forced me to find the strength that I never knew I had. I’m no longer pushed by my problems. I’m led by my dreams. You thought you broke my heart, but truthfully, you did me a favor. Because of you, I’m wiser, stronger, braver and more driven than ever before. I didn’t give up on me, and in the end I found myself on the path to a better life filled with happiness. You gave me the greatest gift of all by leaving. The way to a better me. Thank you for giving up on me. You showed me what truly matters more than anything: Me. Now, I have the greatest love of all.. my own. In the end, I won back my freedom, my strength and my vision for a brighter future. This time, I’m catching my dreams and not ever giving up on any of them.

I Lost My Best Friend

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Life marches forward and I’ll be ok, I feel I’ve lost a friend though and that’s never easy. Things have definitely changed and I know I can never get THAT person back again. The person that smiled when they saw me, laughed at my dumb jokes, and the one that held me when I was hurt is now gone.

Things Will Get Better Before You Know It

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I just want to let you know that it is going to get better. It will. I know it feels like the end of the world right now, and I know you’re in pain. I know what it’s like to feel like that. But I promise you you’re going to reach a point in your life and you’ll find someone who loves you, truly loves you, and you’ll never have to doubt it for a second. You’ll go days without crying, and forget about all the days you were sobbing on your bedroom floor, feeling helpless and lonely. I want you to know that it is okay if you don’t feel okay right now. We all have bad days, and even if this feels like a bad life, it’s not. You’ve got so much to live for. You’ve got more places to travel to, and new people to meet. You have languages to learn and food to try. You have so much left to experience. And if you just hang in for a little while longer, everything will be okay in the end. You can do this.

Becoming My Own Hero

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Yes, I went down the wrong roads. I made all the bad choices, ended up in places and ways that tore my soul apart. Truth be told, I don’t know how I find myself down and out, nor how I made it out intact and still whole. At the end of my rope and facing a mirror image full of disgust, I hit rock bottom. Everyone counted me out and no one gave me a chance. But you know, that’s the thing about a spirit that won’t give up. I don’t know how to quit and I’m meant to be more than where I once was. I pulled myself up, dusted myself off and fought and clawed my way back. I didn’t ask for help and no one helped me up. My dreams didn’t have an expiration and I wasn’t going to quit on them or myself. I know I’m a mess sometimes, a bit of a broken soul with glimpses of beauty stashed in between, but I’m good with that. I made my way, earned my place and I’m fighting to make my story a success. I’ve got a lot of love to give and a passionate fire that can’t be quenched. Sometimes, you realize along the way that you don’t set out to be strong and courageous, but when you’re left holding the pieces of a life gone wrong, those are the only things you have left. It’s not that I’ll ever be beautiful, strong and amazing like the stories of heroes and lovers. But at least I’ll write my story my way, and that’s what matters most of all. I may be beautifully broken and wonderfully imperfect, but I’m still standing. I’m still strong. I didn’t ever go looking for a hero. I decided to become my own.